one week since the fdcom had passed and so much things seemed to be happening this week. weekly fdcom trainings have stopped for the time being. im not sure to feel happy or sad about this. happy cause now i'll have more time to rest and study, but sad course... i just simply miss everything, from the drills to my fellow squadmates. i'm sure all the fdcom drillers have been feeling this way too especially after today's training which they were all put back into their level squads and the standards of drills would definitely be lower. all i can say to you guys is, don't let your drill slack, but instead influence the other squadmates and bring them to the standard or even higher of the fdcom's. the recruitment for NDP06 is here once again and we can send 10 cadets this time. the response was overwhelming and therefore i guess i'll hafta cut it down when i look through the list again next monday. although im really glad that some of the sec3s are super enthusiastic and keen to join everything, im indeed worried for their studies as well. i do not want such redcross events to affect yer studies too much. so pls, go seriously think about it and let me know by monday. had a rather long meeting with the YOs and Poh Huat Sir yesterday. discussed about the unit's futher training plans, which don't look very good because of the few trainings we have left before we hand over, and also because of the tight restriction of the school in certain programmes, and how parents would complain to the school over the slightest thing. seriously i cant stand the thought of parents over pampering their kids. i dont believe in sheltering my juniors all the time, but i rather they get burnt by the fire at times and learn from it. nonetheless, the seniors and i are working very hard to rectify each problem we're currently facing, and bring the unit to the highest level of excellence we can go to... we'll never be able to succeed until we stay united. heard redcross is gonna be the Guard of Honour contingent for FMSS Founder's Day 2006. our chance is finally here after waiting for 3 years. its gonna be super cool with the 5 new SWO commanders and im confident we're gonna display the best drills among the other UGs. its a pity for me that i wouldn't be able to join you guys this year. i received shocking news on wednesday. my PA senior fell into a serious state of coma all of a sudden due to a blood clot in his brain. for more info, please refer to http://www.lioneltock.blogspot.com/ . all of us were totally shocked and horrified to hear such a news. the guy's blenhiem and he has been an awesome senior and friend of mine. he taught me lotsa stuff that i'll never forget during my sec2 years before he graduated. hes only 19 years old. he's now in the ICU of NUH and already went through the first operation. the 1st one was a failure but i believed the 2nd which he had undergone today was a success. his heartbeat did stop for awhile but it resumed later, as according to sean. that was the latest update from the blog at 5.25pm. i do not know whats the real latest news as i've heard not very pleasent ones... but i still pray for it to be the best. so pls pls pls... i beg all of you reading this to keep him in your constant prayers. i don't know what to do now. despite all the power i have to command a unit, im not even able to save the life of this innocent man. blenhiem has been such a close friend to me and its terrible to hear of such a tragic incident happening to him. i feel so lost and deeply sadden. god... you showed us so many of your miracles especially just a week ago during the fdcom. pls... send us another one and let him live...

PHEW... finally the camps are over. the last two weeks was suuupppeeeerrr stress, with all the plannings and tests going on. been sleeping at 2am+ every night mans. oh well, glad its over lar eh. guess the camp went quite successfully... although there was a few cock up here and there within the committee but it was'nt obvious to the rest. i guess what miss tai said was right, running two camps at the same time wasnt such a good plan. tried working on both during the 1st day but by that night realised i was too shagged to carry on so had to leave the orientation camp to the rest of the committee while i trained with the fdcom squad. but hey, the camps turned out great yea! a big thanks to sarah and the rest of the committee, you guys did a really great job! (: been doing alot of thinking and reflection lately... especially after having heard what the YOs hafta say... fdcom, we seriously hafta train to the fullest with our remaining 8 trainings left to the competition. i always tried making trainings fun for all of us, as i strongly believed its the process that counts as compared to the results. i wish for all of us to end off with unforgettable memories that we'll all learn to cherish and never forget. i really hate myself when i hafta punish the scold the squad... its the same feeling seeing someone you love so much suffering course of yourself. i've always let you guys have lotsa privillages as compared to the rest as i really want you to feel special... coming to the rc room after sch, leaving your stuff dere, buying drinks for yall, the way i talk 2 yall, printing the fdcom jersey and all the other sacrifices that the seniors made for the squad, its not for nothing... c'mon guys, like i've always told ya, we're the best of the best we have in the unit, if we don't make it, no one else will. 8 more trainings are all we have left. guess yall didnt really feel the impact when miss tai cried, but i sure did. i dunno why, but i started crying too while yall were having your nap. i was touched that she actually cared so much for us... compared to other YOs i know who don't care much about their unit... i realised how much support we were getting from the unit, but just that we were too blind to appreciate, thinking about our own selfish desires... we train, we suffer, and we win. not for ourselves, but for our unit. i've been putting my faith to the test these few days... especially when the skies were dark and it started raining on friday. yuanhao came and asked me to get ready to execute contingency plan for campfire cos they believed it the rain wudnt stop. i told him a straight NO. i was sure the rain would clear by then, and i was glad it really did. saturday morning, hidayat called me and asked if i wanted to be the reserve commander for the squad... it was really a tough decision for me cos if i were to be the reserved commander, i wudnt get a chance to be march with the squad, and its kinda too late to get a replacement for me. in the end, i told him we'll go ahead without a reserve commander. im taking a very very big risk on this. if anything was to happen to hidayat, the squad would hafta withdraw. once again, im leaving this to god and i have full confidence everything will go just fine. so the rest of you guys out dere, pls continue your prayers for us. overall i guess we all enjoyed ourselves during the camp ehh... the games, campfire, confidence walk which i bet the "couples" all made used of. basket. as well as the late nite "talk cock" sessions... and of course my favourite PT. lolx. still feeling kinda shagged and whole body aching... lucky its chinese new yr this week and i can get my rest. my parents are leaving for china on the 10th to 20th feb so i'll have my freedom for the while. ha ha ha.

lol okay so the blog's finally up, like after so long... all thanks to wenfang. ha ha ha. anyways just decided to do this cos im... jus bored lar yah.